Reiki Masters

Hello,

I am new here, first of all so thank you for this opportunity to allow me to post my comment(s) :) I want to introduce myself, say hello, but also talk about my experiences with Reiki which have been vast and taken many forms.

A year ago I graduated the Reiki I course. It was an amazing experience and I was looking forward to excersising my newly found talents. Unfortunately I was only able to practice on myself and on friends who didn't think I was totally insane for doing this. As I delved deeper into the practicing of Reiki, I noticed some deep changes taking place, both mentally and physically...changes that I was not sure were normal and some that downright scared me at first. As things progressed and I became acclamated, I decided to take Reiki II. I was looking forward to having some new and fascinating experiences during the course. To my dissapointment, I felt nothing...I felt uncomfortable and so much negative energy that I wanted to run screaming from the class. I finished the class because I needed the hours for my massage therapy license.

About 3 weeks later I decided to use what I had learned in Reiki II for the first time. Nothing too spectacular, but then about 3 weeks into it, something happened. I had a serious emotional breakthrough that left me feeling confused and grateful at the same time. I began to delve a bit deeper, but I didn't talk to anyone because there isn't really anyone TO talk to. I felt like I was alone and no one understood.

I have a friend who is a Reiki I graduate, but also is very sensitive in the psychic department. I trusted her, but I wasn't sure what was happening so I never said anything to her.

About a month later, I was talking to a friend who had just went through a very emotional trial in the hospital leaving her feeling very vulnerable and full of stress and panick! I came over to do Reiki on her when all of a sudden it was as if I was taking her emotions in. I began writhing in pain and screaming as if in total anguish only I felt nothing, just sort of like going thru the motions; I had no control over my body movements and my voice...it was as if an unseen force was moving me. When I finished my tirade (?), she was in tears and said "That was exactly what it felt like." I about fell to the floor! What happened to me?

I have since put the Reiki aside and now have about 500 more questions and no one to answer them. I feel a bit frightened and maybe some resentment towards it. I feel that there is something happening and I have no idea how to control it, understand it....I feel totally alone. I finally spoke with my psychic freind that told me I need to protect myself. Before I begin a Reiki session I do ask for protection...EVERY TIME....and this is where my confusion comes in. What am I doing, am I ok, am I protected, am I helping, how do I hone this...aaahhhhggg!!!

PLEASE....I need some help...I need guidance. I pray someone here will be able to point me in the right direction without confusing me even further :) I still have no answers, but am only left with more questions.

Thank you again for your time and the opportunity to talk about my issues.

Sincerely,

Debbles